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College sucks.

Posted by SwedishPlumTrees - October 9th, 2013


Firstly, my newest video is here

Also, I'm not usually about the whole "blog" crap because I usually don't give a shit about what other people post, so it's only safe to assume that nobody gives a shit what I have to say. However, writing does feel good, and it feels even better when there's the off-chance that somebody else may read it.

I moved into my college dorm back in August, and it's been fantastic! Besides having no friends, my roommate being a complete douche, and suicidal thoughts slowly taking over. I feel sort of trapped. This dorm room is just a trap, I feel. The administrators sold me on the school, and basically, I'm stuck. Believe me, I'm far luckier than many, given the opportunity to even go to college. However, when your roommate is puking on the floor because he likes to "get fucked up", or getting locked out of your room because he needs to "talk" to his ugly cunt of a girlfriend, or basically being tricked into thinking you'd be taking animation classes...well...it begins to take its toll on you.

I mean, animation calms my nerves. It's great. It allows me to free my mind, and even discuss certain things. But, lately, it's like my mind is just saying to turn around and go home. I shouldn't be doing this. I wasn't meant for this. When I found animation, it was like a godsend. I was lost in highschool, wondering about my future. Animation was basically a total surprise (an awesome one). I felt like my life had purpose. Like I was actually worth something. I never did get very good grades in high school. Atleast compared to others. And college is turning out the same way. Lackluster. But animation has always been there. But now, with this sinking feeling, this little notion telling me "you weren't meant for this", I feel lost. What makes it worse is there is nobody to talk to. Talking to a professor would just feel weird to me, because there's always the sneaking suspicion that everything they do is just an attempt to sell you on something.

Maybe they are, maybe it's bullshit. But I just hope that something better comes along.


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Find a club with like-minded people and hang out with them. I'm still trying to find one myself, so it's not easy (if you're lazy like me). Luckily a lot of the other people in my freshman dorm were cool, I've roomed with some of them the past 2 years.

I made friends because people were playing Smash 64 in the lounge. It just happens, can't force it.

Tried 2 clubs. Nobody talked in either of them. I've tried stirring up conversation with people, about anything, nothing too terribly niche or obscure, like video games or TV shows. Nobody seems to want to talk around here. Kind of odd if you ask me, but whatever.

Ugh!, the TV series show that more enjoyable, lucky me that here is not like that. But don't forget that you are there to study, not to get fun, so while you find some friends, you may avoid to be in your room, and you must think deeply if what you are study there is what you really want.

There is no chance to ask for a room change, or even live outside the college?

Pretty much no chance. But hey, I ain't stayin' here much longer. I'll deal with his dumb ass until December. But I'm gonna fucking make it hell for him. And agreed, I really do need to think about what I'm studying. Perhaps a teacher somewhere. Anyways, thanks for the comment.

Get rid of your roommate. He sounds like an asshole who puts his problems above you and thinks the room is his when it's not. That guy needs to talk to his girlfriend? Talk somewhere else! It doesn't have to be the in a room he SHARES with you! Let that guy "get fucked up" somewhere away from you!

Get rid of him somehow. Get a new roommate, move out, make him move out, break bad and kill him or put up with his shit until the end of the semester.

I've tried. Talked with the people at the school, they basically shrugged their shoulders and said "this stuff happens." Awesome. Nice work guys. it's cool, I didn't just pay thousands of dollars or anything. The kid (I say kid, because he acts more like a 12 year old, not a college student) doesn't even respect me. Thanks for the comment.

yea

aey

You're probably just trying to vent, but yea college blows hard in the beginning. You've moved away, on your own, left your friends. It's all new and hard generally. my advice, give it a year and if you don't like it, dropout. College isn't for some people, and you're an artist. The best "college" is to create a huge portfolio of work and learn how to sell yourself.

Exactly what I'm going to be doing. I may not stay at this college specifically, but I'll give it a year somewhere else. If nothing else, I could always travel. At least then I'll be happy (albeit hungry and homeless)...

Just do animation...why are you wasting your life and money in college to get a a degree in thousands of dollars worth of debt?

Why not get thousands of dollars in loans and start an animation production company?

Parents, mostly. They expect college to give immediate results (which is almost never the case). I honestly just don't trust the education system. It wouldn't be the first time they've steered me wrong. From now on, unless I'm in significant need of a degree, I'm going to be listening to myself. At least then, if I make a mistake, I'll have no one else to blame. And then I can learn from it and move on from there. Thanks for the comment.

I hear you on the subject that college sucks... ha ha
My first year I felt the same exact way pretty much, I had one friend and that was all.
This year is a little better, the place doesn't feel like an abandoned place as much and there are a few, not many, people to talk to.

I would tell you what I've done to get myself out of the mindset, but to be honest, I've been getting back into a more "depressed" mindset again...
Meeting a nice girl this year and being able to hang out has actually made college liveable this year though, so my advice, find someone you can actually talk to and hang out with, as long as you can tolerate them, life in college will seem easier... at least when you are with them.

If animation is what you like, go do that man!

I know exactly where you are coming from, I had pretty much the same freshman experience, minus the bad the roommates. You should talk to a counselor about the whole situation, tell them exactly what you said here + that he is seriously being a detriment to both your academic status and comfort level as resident.

I dropped out my second semester, then went to a community college for a year, and took only classes that pertained to my main interest (music) part time. maybe that's a (much less expensive) route you want to look into, to gain appreciation for school...I'm in my seventh year of college now, fairly close to finally getting a bachelor's after doing a lot of major-switching, but truly, I don't know what it is that I want to be when I grow up. There's no reason that you should know either at 18-19, and a significant amount of people who already claim to have such a clear idea of what they want to do at that age have a tremendous ego, and/or are so eager to enter into the 40 hour 9-5 work week/become a human dollar sign generator/drive a BMW/get fucked up on the weekends/repeat cycle... but one thing I regret is not having that drive and taking full advantage of the opportunity back then. I mean, living in an environment where you have access to and can immerse yourself in knowledge you are interested in, clubs without the silly high school rules, food (sometimes), gym, in addition to being in a place with "beautiful" people all around you, it's practically a resort for learning. sorry, just thinking of what could have been. that probably doesn't make you feel better, but I think it's great that you realize that you are far luckier than most people having such an opportunity, and while such thinking won't be a remedy to your problems, if you didn't have this glimmer of appreciation you would be even more miserable then you are now. You still have approximately two months two 'turn things around' and a long winter break after that to ponder what the comments people are relaying to you.

Again, if you explain these thoughts to a guidance counselor, they may be able to help you. About your professors being in it "to sell you on something", I would have to disagree, as people with masters and PHDs don't get to where they are just to try to sell you something. unless it's business teachers because by definition, that's their job.

Lastly, something better won't just come along and fall in your lap, you have to reach out and take hold of it. not every single person in college is the douchebag fratboy or sorority sister who sees throwing ping pong balls into plastic cups while listening to shitty music as the pinnacle of the college experience- and it's up to you make an effort and make some friends. Without an input, there is no output. good luck.

Thank you for the comment. I actually am thinking more and more about community college. It just seems like the better option right now, just to get my shit together. While I don't know if I'll consult a guidance counselor over this (it just seems like more of a problem with me right now), I am starting to join more clubs. There's a yin-yang to all this. I just gotta put forth more effort to the whole friend thing. Thank you for the kind words and the advice. I have a lot of thinking to do, but in time, hopefully things turn around. Thanks again.