Firstly, my newest video is here
Also, I'm not usually about the whole "blog" crap because I usually don't give a shit about what other people post, so it's only safe to assume that nobody gives a shit what I have to say. However, writing does feel good, and it feels even better when there's the off-chance that somebody else may read it.
I moved into my college dorm back in August, and it's been fantastic! Besides having no friends, my roommate being a complete douche, and suicidal thoughts slowly taking over. I feel sort of trapped. This dorm room is just a trap, I feel. The administrators sold me on the school, and basically, I'm stuck. Believe me, I'm far luckier than many, given the opportunity to even go to college. However, when your roommate is puking on the floor because he likes to "get fucked up", or getting locked out of your room because he needs to "talk" to his ugly cunt of a girlfriend, or basically being tricked into thinking you'd be taking animation classes...well...it begins to take its toll on you.
I mean, animation calms my nerves. It's great. It allows me to free my mind, and even discuss certain things. But, lately, it's like my mind is just saying to turn around and go home. I shouldn't be doing this. I wasn't meant for this. When I found animation, it was like a godsend. I was lost in highschool, wondering about my future. Animation was basically a total surprise (an awesome one). I felt like my life had purpose. Like I was actually worth something. I never did get very good grades in high school. Atleast compared to others. And college is turning out the same way. Lackluster. But animation has always been there. But now, with this sinking feeling, this little notion telling me "you weren't meant for this", I feel lost. What makes it worse is there is nobody to talk to. Talking to a professor would just feel weird to me, because there's always the sneaking suspicion that everything they do is just an attempt to sell you on something.
Maybe they are, maybe it's bullshit. But I just hope that something better comes along.
MSGhero
Find a club with like-minded people and hang out with them. I'm still trying to find one myself, so it's not easy (if you're lazy like me). Luckily a lot of the other people in my freshman dorm were cool, I've roomed with some of them the past 2 years.
I made friends because people were playing Smash 64 in the lounge. It just happens, can't force it.
SwedishPlumTrees
Tried 2 clubs. Nobody talked in either of them. I've tried stirring up conversation with people, about anything, nothing too terribly niche or obscure, like video games or TV shows. Nobody seems to want to talk around here. Kind of odd if you ask me, but whatever.